wellll now.

As of today January 26, 2012 my son's father and I have broken up. The future it could change because we didn't break up because we fell out of love or anything. We broke up because he decided to mess up his life up with drugs. I tried to help him while I lived there and all it did was lead to plenty of fighting. After almost of year of this constant cycle of him lying to me, me pretending everything was OK, and more fighting than I would like to admit I moved out and took Henry with me. We have been staying/living with my parents and they have been great. Very supportive and taking care of everything Henry and I could need. I have been looking into buying a townhouse. We put an offer down on three bedroom, fixer-upper, but sadly, we lost it to a higher bidder. So now we continue to look and we put an offer on another place which I hope works out. A lot of things keep running through my mind about this whole situation I have been put into. Chris seems to be working towards getting better, but is that going to stick? Should I move on with my life or should I continue to be a part of Chris's while he gets better. I am trying to make moves to better my life without Chris as of right now but I am not positive I want him out of my life.
     Today we took Henry to Kidzclub in Phoenix. It was basically a huge playhouse for children. Henry had a blast climbing, going down the slides, play with the mass amounts of toys, and popping bubbles. Chris and I took Henry and it's the first time we have done something together since this whole mess started. We got along well and actually enjoyed being together. I think it was because we had to focus on Henry the whole time and we couldn't do much else. I hope today was a glimpse of how our future could be, us all getting along and enjoying the company.

sixteen months

My baby is now sixteen months. 16! It has been a crazy last month for Henry and I, so of course it feels like things have flown by.

• Henry points to his nose, belly button and sticks out his tongue when asked
• he will get his shoes for you when you ask as well as throw garbage out when you ask and help you clean
• He loves to talk on the phone and it sounds like he is having an actual conversation
• Sometimes he comes up to you says something and you wish you knew what he is saying but of course it's just jibberish, but I don't doubt he has actually said something completely revelant. 
• he loves climbing, playing horsey, horseplay, anything that involves being rowdy 
• he eats just about anything you give him. and he loves to dip things. Doesn't matter if it doesn't go together. (ketchup and oranges YUCK)
• he is getting a bunch of teeth. four back teeth and one little tooth next to the bottom two front. he has been handling it really well. a little cranky, a little early morning wake ups but honestly nothing huge.
• Henry can say dada, momma, ball, and hot, he can sign hot, more and all done
• he loves eating for everyone but me. I swear he doesn't like to eat when I am around. and he sticks to me like glue. trying to get things done with him around is next to impossible. he's such a nosy little boy. I know i will miss it one day. 
• He enjoys brushing his teeth and getting his hair brushed
• He cannot live without teddy 

He's just an amazing little boy.