wellll now.

As of today January 26, 2012 my son's father and I have broken up. The future it could change because we didn't break up because we fell out of love or anything. We broke up because he decided to mess up his life up with drugs. I tried to help him while I lived there and all it did was lead to plenty of fighting. After almost of year of this constant cycle of him lying to me, me pretending everything was OK, and more fighting than I would like to admit I moved out and took Henry with me. We have been staying/living with my parents and they have been great. Very supportive and taking care of everything Henry and I could need. I have been looking into buying a townhouse. We put an offer down on three bedroom, fixer-upper, but sadly, we lost it to a higher bidder. So now we continue to look and we put an offer on another place which I hope works out. A lot of things keep running through my mind about this whole situation I have been put into. Chris seems to be working towards getting better, but is that going to stick? Should I move on with my life or should I continue to be a part of Chris's while he gets better. I am trying to make moves to better my life without Chris as of right now but I am not positive I want him out of my life.
     Today we took Henry to Kidzclub in Phoenix. It was basically a huge playhouse for children. Henry had a blast climbing, going down the slides, play with the mass amounts of toys, and popping bubbles. Chris and I took Henry and it's the first time we have done something together since this whole mess started. We got along well and actually enjoyed being together. I think it was because we had to focus on Henry the whole time and we couldn't do much else. I hope today was a glimpse of how our future could be, us all getting along and enjoying the company.

sixteen months

My baby is now sixteen months. 16! It has been a crazy last month for Henry and I, so of course it feels like things have flown by.

• Henry points to his nose, belly button and sticks out his tongue when asked
• he will get his shoes for you when you ask as well as throw garbage out when you ask and help you clean
• He loves to talk on the phone and it sounds like he is having an actual conversation
• Sometimes he comes up to you says something and you wish you knew what he is saying but of course it's just jibberish, but I don't doubt he has actually said something completely revelant. 
• he loves climbing, playing horsey, horseplay, anything that involves being rowdy 
• he eats just about anything you give him. and he loves to dip things. Doesn't matter if it doesn't go together. (ketchup and oranges YUCK)
• he is getting a bunch of teeth. four back teeth and one little tooth next to the bottom two front. he has been handling it really well. a little cranky, a little early morning wake ups but honestly nothing huge.
• Henry can say dada, momma, ball, and hot, he can sign hot, more and all done
• he loves eating for everyone but me. I swear he doesn't like to eat when I am around. and he sticks to me like glue. trying to get things done with him around is next to impossible. he's such a nosy little boy. I know i will miss it one day. 
• He enjoys brushing his teeth and getting his hair brushed
• He cannot live without teddy 

He's just an amazing little boy.

don't ask me why this is so hard.

Blogging sounds easy but it's not, taking classes sounds easy but it's not, and  taking a quick nap sounds easy but it's not! The reason?

One active child.

epic fail

I have not posted in so long and so this means I broke my promise of blogging on the regular. I'm back though, and ready to continue my new years resolution. I think the main reason I stopped blogging for awhile was because I was the only follower. If I am the only one reading my own blog what's the point of making the effort to write? I started writing in my journal when I was in first grade and I kept it up all the way up until my beginning years of college. It's awesome to read back and be like "Wow I don't even remember doing that!"  So you know what who cares if no one reads my blog, it will be nice to just read back on this years from now with Henry and be able to tell him about all the fun things we did. I am going to make more of an effort to get my blog out there because after being a blog reader for over a year and all the friends and opportunities there are, why wouldn't I want to do it?

not much

Not much here..Enjoying summer...  loving life with my henry boo..making sure henry is happy everyday..watching a whole lot less tv...gardening my pretty garden...having crazy bachelorette bash! This basically sums up the time I have not written.

eight months

Eight Months! NO say it ain't so! Henry is growing so fast and all I want him to do is stay my little baby forever. I'll admit though, every month that goes by Henry becomes that much more fun to be with. Month seven we didn't see too many new milestones, more perfecting everything he had been doing in the months leading up to month seven. Then month eight came around and we saw his first crawl steps, which lead to his first head bump! Oh Henry!  Henry has become so hilarious, he keeps me laughing all day.  Example: The other night it was nearing bedtime so I tucked Henry in and left the room. He wasn't having it and after five minutes of crying I went in to console him, as soon as I walked in the room Henry started the whole putting his blanket over his head so I would say, "Where's Henry?"  and then pull the blanket off and laugh at me, I couldn't stop laughing along with him. It was over the top cute.  Henry is also so curious and active. There is no downtime with him it's always " Go! Go! Go!"

             Today it was almost ninety out and we had plans to go to the beach but car trouble kept us from doing that.  So to beat the heat I filled up one of my storage bins and Henry splashed around, he loved it for about ten minutes until he figured out how to stand up in it and then he just kept trying to escape, no matter how many times I sat him back down in the water. So there is no happy medium with Henry energy is high everyday and so that is why when it's Henry's bedtime I try to get to bed just as soon as he does, because I know my whole day is filled with a constant ball of energy. Not complaining, I love my little babe.

foodz

So it's my weekend off and Saturday started bright and early with Henry waking up before seven. I try my best to get him to go back to sleep for one extra hour at least but some mornings he just won't have it and will let me know he wants me to wake up. He sticks his hands all up in my face and gives me swift kicks with his little feet! Oh Henry! So I had read about a rummage sale going on about five minutes from me so since we were up pretty early Henry and I decided to check it out. We found a couple things but nothing that I was super excited about. Oh well. We ran to the grocery store and then home.  It was only 1:00pm, and my dad called asking if I wanted to go watch the salt potato eating contest that was happening down in the middle of our town. Of course I wanted to, so since it was raining Gangy volunteered to watch Henry so I could experience the joys of my first  food eating contest. Can you say fun?! The announcer was corny with his jokes but they were still funny, and it was hilarious to watch people shove potatoes in their mouth for ten minutes. It was a close race but Joey Chestnut, Nathan's hot dog world eating champ won. Back at Gangy's Henry was being a little cranky pants so I thought it best to get him home and to bed, where he promptly fell asleep playing with his toys.